Today on Father’s day, I take this opportunity to write a letter to you and express how much I truly love you although I may not be able to express all of my emotions into words.
You have always narrated me the stories of how you and mom used to sit at the extreme corners of the bed while teaching me to walk.
Maybe that is the point in time from where I should start the journey with? or maybe the photograph that is currently flashing before my eyes of you and I on the hospital bed just when I was born, where you look handsome as always and I look like a deformed potato.
It has almost been 22 years since I have known you. A father is said to be the first man in a daughter’s life, the first man to show her what love is. He is her superhero, her king. He makes a huge impact on her daughter’s life and I’m thankful that you made a positive one on mine.
From teaching me how to walk, to teaching me how to deal with life, you have always taught me how to stand on my feet. You not only protected me but also taught me how to defend myself when you’re not around although I’m still in my learning process. I fail to imagine a life without you. This is something no matter how much I mature, won’t change.
You have always been there when I needed you or even when I don’t. You always stood besides me, smiling proudly and making me feel good about myself. You were always there as a father, as a best friend with whom I can confide almost everything my fears, my mistakes, my successes, my failures and you always listened and guided me while dancing in my joys and being a pillar of support in my hard times.
You were the one who introduced me into the world of books, one book at a time. Making reading a habit. While at first you brought books for me according to my age, I slowly started developing my taste and style and got into the world of literature which ultimately brings me here in the world of blogging where too you have been my constant motivator and as well as a critic.
You have absolutely no idea how much I appreciate the life lessons you teach me on our road trips or how much I value it. You also have no idea how grateful I’m to have a father like you and my feelings of love for you is practically immeasurable.
As much as I want to thank you, I also want to apologize. I know I have been tough to handle. I have snapped back at you on various occasions but trust me I never wanted to hurt you. I always want to make you proud. Whether it is my small achievements, my academic performances, me as a human or doing something BIG in life. I want you to be present in of this.
Tears roll down my cheeks as I write this tonight.I hope you understand how important you are to me and how much I love you. To the infinity and beyond, but even that would be a smaller term to define.
Happy Father’s Day pavazui.
I’ll always be your little princess.