Your thoughts on the nights when you just can’t sleep

Capture Sunshine: when you just can't sleep

There’re those nights when your mind will refuse to shut up and all you would do is THINK. You would think about what happened the past hour, the past week, the past month or perhaps the past year. You would think about the good and the bad. You would think about what could have been, what should and why it didn’t. You would keep replaying the moments like a stuck record tape until you’re convinced that the universe is conspired against you and you just can’t seem to have your own way.
You would toss and turn around in your bed unable to fall asleep. You would wonder why isn’t life so perfect? Why isn’t life similar to fairy tales in the books and the movies? Why couldn’t you be flawless and perfect? Why is it when everything seems so easy and right, it ends?

“At any given point of time, our one foot is in a fairy tale and the other in the abyss.”

It’s at night when you seem to see your true desires.You would think of the failures and what would the people say, the successes and how it motivates you to strive for better from then, the messages that you never sent, the things you never meant. 

Its when you become poets and philosophers.

Its that time of the night when your most tender, vulnerable side of you come into play in front of the non judgmental  eyes of the stars. At this current point of time you feel completely alone. At night when the world goes to sleep, you’re left with your worries, fears and pains. The weight of all this might me unbearable. The feeling of chaos in your mind makes sleep almost impossible and all you really want is someone to hold you and say “You’re not alone”. 

Ah! These magical words would light up your spirits but well, there is no one around and instead you tell your mind to shut up and sleep so that you could wake up on time for the important meeting the next day. But your brain doesn’t listen and you are left with your fears gripping you tight making you paralysed. Your mind races and so does your heartbeat. It is truly said that “Negative thoughts creates room for more negativity to appear”

So, you start from one incident and jump on to the next related incident and the journey is endless and you’re exhausted. You look at the clock and it says 3 am and finally your eyes weigh more than your thoughts and you drift off to sleep.

 

How do I know all this? I have been in the same boat as you.

Comments

  1. The Words Kraft

    Sleepless nights are probably the best moments to think and imagine. I have had many such nights when we had our baby. The kiddo won’t sleep and I used to stay awake too. These were moments when I literally discovered new plans and roadmaps for my venture – Words Kraft. This was the time of the 24 Hours clock which was truly mine. With no sounds, chit-chats, distractions. Just me and my thoughts. The baby would stare at the ceiling fascinated by the ceiling fan, which I guess was something very new to him 🙂 Great post.

  2. Vajra

    I am in the same boat. I used to feel if there are any people who think like me in night with insomnia . Dreaming that something can change and later mood swings to fear about getting ready for tomorrow meetings and work to make sure all goes right with no mistakes. I have tears hiding while reading this. DEEP thoughts and thank you for such a wonderful post. I am not alone ….

  3. ktkinnes

    I love that this was me last night…. it’s so hard to get to sleep once those thoughts start coming! There’s a really enjoyable flow to your writing by the way, this was beautifully written. Hope you get a good night’s sleep tonight!

  4. justnatonya

    This was so deep, I like post like these, creating mystery among our reality. I’ll admit most of my poetry and post ideas come from those moments of me laying in bed thinking and letting my mind run free. I laugh because I literally reach over and grab my phone so I can jot down any keywords to jog my memory the next morning of the cool idea I had the night before.

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