I’m turning 24 today and for the first time, I’m at peace.
When I was a child, I always wanted to grow up so that I could live my life without restrictions – I could buy whatever I want, watch tv all night and never go to school.
When I was in college, I wanted to go back to being a kid, I hated the stress of long classes and extra Saturdays. I was unsure if I could make it to the big corporate world, I wanted to sleep more, rest more, live more and be carefree like a kid.
When I got my first job, I felt I’m getting old way too fast. Whhaaattt? I have to be an adult, go to an actual job, pay taxes and bills? I have responsibilities? When did this happen? I wanted to stop growing old.
In my entire life, I never understood how ageing works and definitely didn’t be at peace with who I’m.
Now I’m different.
This year as I turn 24, I feel at peace with myself for the first time. I feel I’m exactly at the place where I should be.
I am optimistic.
Realising that I’m alive and kicking, humbles me and fills me with a deep sense of gratitude. I feel that I hold the power to control my life and that I can change if something feels amiss. I don’t have to jump years to get things done and I can let past be bygones.
I love who I’m.
“I’m too fat, my dark circles, my imperfections are visible to the entire world to see, I’m ashamed.” – I used to chant this everyday like a mantra. I didn’t see that I am my worst cheerleader. Over these years, especially this year I have started to love the person who I’m and have started to understand the circumstances/turning points in my life that shaped my personality.
I respect and acknowledge my roots and history.
I put my family first
So when I realised that I’m growing old, I realised that my parents are growing older as well.
It’s like a wake-up call!
I spend more time with them, taking care of them, listening to what they have to say and share my stories. They are my best friends and the people I confide in.
I’m grateful for my parents and my entire family to always being my biggest supporters in whatever I do. They are the real MVPs.
I strive for balance
I understood that you can’t make one thing your entire life. You have your career, your family, your passion, your health – all aspects which are important but neither one of them is important enough to override the others.
I have started to at least try keeping a balance. Work hard with dedication at office, relax when I’m outta there, spend time with family and work on my passion projects – all at their designated times.. which makes it ever more important to be in the moment.
I live in the moment
To successfully keep a balance, you need to be in the moment. As I said before, I always wanted the time that I could never have – either the past or the future. Now, I am perfectly happy in being the moment.
I live everyday as if I travelled in time just to live this one day and do it justice. This has changed my life.
I’m more mindful and I feel everything so deeply just because I know I only get this chance once. That this time that I have right now, shall also pass and I should live it like it.
As I turn 24 today, I feel that the lessons I learned has been a great gift to me. I’m grateful for everything I have, I’m grateful that you guys are reading this and of the wonderful support you all show me. My heart is filled with gratitude and love.
Thank you all of you, thank you universe! Here is to many more happy birthdays.
Pssstt.. I now turned 25: Turning 25